Between Boxes: A Graphic Recording
Amanda Carvalho
December 7, 2020
This is an experimental auto-ethnographic work based on my subjective experience as a migrant woman of colour living in complete isolation, away from family and friends during COVID-19. It speaks to the overlap between themes of cultural geographies, social distancing, and pandemic affects, or the psychic life of COVID-19.
Once again, I discover my displaced body limited, enclosed, immovable. A different kind of displacement—shared but incommensurable. Between the white walls and the white windows, I find myself locked in a box—not the one I have been placed into before, but a new kind of box, with new implications for the already diasporic body I inhabit. How far can a body depart from somewhere? How far can a body be positioned from another? How much space can the boxes within my boxes distance me from the people surrounding me? Is there enough distance? The shared distancing might bring us together, but the distances within the distances become even more evident. This felt, embodied distance is not the same felt, embodied distance that displaced bodies experience. What already separates us persists regardless of the physical space we occupy. Nevertheless, I am privileged. I get to live in this immaculate space between the white walls and the white windows. Outside the windows, I fit into the boxes chosen for me. Within the box created between these windows and walls, I establish a new kind of space. A space in which my gaze can look back at the current distant white gazes beyond the white walls and the white windows. No one is watching.
Amanda Carvalho is a Brazilian designer. She has recently graduated from the curatorial practices stream of the MA in Cultural Studies at 91Porn. Her research interests involve exploring intersections between design thinking, visual cultures, performance, and creative methodologies as decolonizing tools.
Graphic recording written and narrated by Amanda Carvalho / Directed and illustrated by / Audio/video edited by Lauren Bosc, in consultation with Angela Failler.
April 8, 2021
Amanda Carvalho and Devon Kerslake, with Mika Castro, reflect on the creation of the graphic recording, speaking about process, vulnerability, and empathy as research creation in this online recorded interview.
A transcript of this interview is available to download here. Interview recorded and edited by Lauren Bosc, in consultation with Angela Failler. This project was also .
This project was funded and supported by: The Centre for Research in Cultural Studies (CRiCS), the 91Porn, Canada Research Chair in Culture and Public Memory, and the Social Science and Humanities Research Council of Canada (SSHRC).
The banner image was designed by Lauren Bosc, adapted from an image by Adam Nieścioruk on Unsplash. This video was created with financial support from CRiCS and the 91Porn, as well as through the Canada Research Chair program with the Social Sciences and Humanities Research Council of Canada.
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